A Cascade of Dreams -worlds within books!

I am writing after ages and all for the sake of me.I am not brilliant at this yet expressing my gut out makes me feel so much better,its almost enlightening!! I was pondering about the books I 've read throughout my life-the wide array,of books.Some better than the others,some realistic,some tumultuous,some hopeless romantic,some passionate,some chic & stylish,some placid & subtle~and what's common about them?? They all have a story to tell,compelling ones,alluring ones,livid,agonizing,almost heart breaking and yes,inspiring too. The larger than life images embellished on them almost makes you want to cry,laugh endlessly,ponder deeply,live like there's no tomorrow, love like you have never before, and chase your dreams. These books portray human life at its very best!! Coelho's Igor kills for love,sounds surreal but the heights of his love has no bound.Spark's Noah makes you fall in love over and over again.Kinsella's Becky Bloomwood makes you want to live your life to the fullest- she's driven by her passion for shopping; needless to say shopping might not be all of ours passion,but there definitely is something else & she evokes that passion in us.Steele's Annie shares a story about how far can you go to keep your family safe and intact. A world within the book is as thought evoking as it can be,as alive as you want it to be. Often times you slow down and sigh at the misfortune,even shed some tears ,other times you turn pages so rapidly so as to peek at its climax.The books allure you,stimulates your system at the same time they provoke you,acts on your inhibition,impulsivity-a true medium for catharsis..Books are your soulmates,your best friend;they don't judge you nor betray,you.They never leaveyour side;they are humble,loyal and they have great stories to share to cheer you up.They want you to dream to emote,to be rational. They can be your bedtime stories,'the last song' ,'A walk,to remember'.No matter how tipsy turvy 'A Bend in the road 'is,the books know that you're a 'BIG Girl'.It knows you've 'Confessions',it understands your independence - after all'A winner stands Alone'.It coaxes you to change and be better 'One Day at a time'.Books are the vision of 'a Thousand splendid sun'.Even if 'The Sky is falling' and when you know 'Nothing lasts forever';'If Tomorrow comes',books will embrace us like 'SISTERS' would. Books understand your 'SECRETS' like noone ever would. The bottom line is Books are divine and I feel indebted towards the novelists who spread their magic with words and they don't need wands to accomplish what they have done thus far.Its the job very well done.It teaches us to empathize.Books are the mirror to our soul.It teaches us that It's okay to losen up,to live your life to the fullest-there's no room for callousness.Books have been my best friend,my role model & it has been a wonderful journey indeed!So,just wanted to pay my tribute for its immenseness. Once again a deep gratitude to all the novelists....Thank you very much. Dedicated to all the book lovers..¥_¥

My Nepal, Our Nepal!

My beloved Nepal, From the distant land in the Western horizon, today like countless others, I am hoping for you to bounce back again. I am praying for the chaos to end right here right now.I am wishing for you to be happy and beautiful again.For you are my mother and always shall be. For all these years staying away from you made me feel may be somehow my love for you has ceased. May be I've chosen to move on by turning blind eye towards you but this incomprehensible crisis that you had to go through made me realize, that is not the complete picture at all.I decided to live my life away from you but you and only you can be my mother- I am for you are! You gave me identity,you gave me memories; moreover my childhood blossomed in your lap and you made sure I bloomed enough so that I could choose what I wanted to do with my life. I cannot thank you enough for letting me take refuge in your heart, for embracing me with arms wide open and for letting me be a proud 'Nepali' . You were poor ,you were shabby but never once you forgot to smile,never once you stopped loving your children. And I want to thank you for withstanding all the hurdles gracefully. You taught me the essence of unity in diversity.You taught me to be brave and always to keep my head held high no matter how hard it was. You taught me to fall but to rise a notch higher once I get up.You taught me to be kind and considerate.You taught me to have a huge heart and to keep my arms open to everyone and anyone.You taught me to be everything -A Nepali ever stands for. Thank you for being my mother, my inspiration and my first love.I know you are hurt but we your children shall promise to recreate you steadily.We vow to stand by you and with all our fellow Nepalese brothers and sisters in sickness and in health .We stand in solidarity today and hopefully this petrifying horror will soon come to an end.You got this Nepal! It will be okay. Dedicated to our Nepal! Jai Nepal!

Contradiction!

Blank slate-you could consider me so.You can start off with the scratch and write all you have in store for me.Traumatizing,agonizing, heart rendering truths that overwhelms me from within..Or you can synchronize it with love,trust,bond,faith-(I know they all sound so good.).Only if they were to ooze from my core life would be worth it! But "contradiction" is the ultimatum.who says I can have all I want? Who says I can't have all I want?see I told you contradiction,none but mere contradiction epitomizes your life as well as mine.But, if that's so why don't we let fate take over us from the runway of dilemma.Why do we try over and again? From contradiction to perfection ,i strive for finding the true me and so do you..with all you have, you try to find the real you..You push yourself behind your limits at times and somethime you just let it go......Life complicates it witha bump..eases it with a swing, twists and turns witha swirve -roaller coaster ride of our life I meant.There are loads to lose yet the loss doesn't make you a loser.That's the beauty of life.Like a gambler who's willing to bet his last penny as he's flying in the world of grandiosity(imagines himslef in a limousine making his way to the top casino in Toronto with a woman he has always dreamt of beside his arms).You know exactly what I mean right..His Limousine may be our toyota,toronoto may be right here right now and the woman he drools for might be the perfect thing that makes your life worth it(doesn't have to be a guy/girl..it could come in any forms ;parents as your mentors,siblings as your strength,friends as your soulmates,your career as your dream,your lifestysle as your pride).anything subtle or challenging makes life worth it if you don't underestimate it. We sometimes tend to be submissive about change when we should be able to embrace it.....What i mean to say is clear as a crystal thereon. Be it contradiction or some other fallacy, we drive ourselves to it.Life doesn't...Life provides us with a blank paper and a charcoal to draw our lives the way we want to...sometimes we improvise it, sometimes we tear ir apart..We match up with its melancholy like a lullaby of bed time stories, yet we tend to ignore and trash it until we have driven everything we ever loved away from us....With contradiction our existence is dubious..But the true challenge is not having to conquer life..the true challenge is within you.Having to conquer your innerself..Being adept and knowing the true "you"..And more over being able to make right "choices"...So the contradiction that are able to manipulate us are none but the choices we make in life...We fall because we were carefree; ignored the pit that was ahead of us.We lament because we let somebody else mortify us from inside out.We give priorities when we were supposed to ignore it.We hold on to it..when the best thing to do is to let go..We lose our loved ones because we were too foolish to make right choices ..Its us...The contradiction plays its game not to see what has life in store for us but to see what do we have in our minds...The insights that we have learnt all along..let it come into effect..The choices you make, don't let it contradict with the true "you" NOTE:I have made wrong choices in life .That's the part of life. And life goes on maintaining its slow and steady pace.Whatsoever, with the wrong choices we have once made, it provides us with a chance to correct it so DO NOTturn a blind eye on to it .......it lets you confront yourself about what went wrong and that's how you learn to make right choices.....) So if you were ever worried about having done something wrong, and not leading the life you wanted to;life always gives you second chance.Don't contradict your choices.accept it..Embrace your life..acknowledge the true you....Afterall you are worth more than anything ...You stumble...You stand up..laugh right at it..and stride ahead..that's the way to go) DEDICATED TO EVERYONE WHO LOVE THEMSELVES & DARE TO MAKE IT RIGHT WHEN THEIR WORLD IS TURNING UPSIDE DOWN

Tint of Happiness

Foreword:This is something I wrote on my phone while at work so consider it to be a rough draft,it still has loads of room for correction in contrast to all the other notes that I've written....I will work on it as soon as I get some spare time...It's a promise..... A thought bubble pops up in my head; i poke it open.. What i see??-a smile revisited me after ages.. Suddenly i feel exhilarated.. I am least bothered by the apprehensions that I encased inside my system. I wondered what would it feel like to be happy..and Here I am all happy and being myself. I realized Happiness is like trickle of water on a hot deserted summer day that soothes u from within... Ahh a sigh of relief!! And everything seems so beautiful..one moment you were bloated with the upsetting thoughts; very next moment all seems so right. As if the doorway to heaven is wide open and here you are amidst the heaven on earth- that would be your happy place; that makes you the true you that you are fond of. Trust me when I say, it's fun to revisit your inner-self at times... Why?? It keeps you going through rough & devastating times.. You are like the rekindled spirit that needs to meet your inner soulmate in order to break it free & to unwind the intricacies of life. I am happy so just spreading word of happiness.. The ulterior motive whatsoever is to justify being happy itself.. Complicated huh?? That's how things are.. When you tend to ignore, you can't let go., when you tend to hold on to it, you need reassurance.... So there's no time being happy- Just chasing materialism and being the person who we ought to be and not the one that we truly are from within Assuming that happiness oozes from my core today, I put a deep thought in to it. As weird as it sounds, I just realized that you pull all the right strings at the right time..i was drifting away and you brought me to life.. Your kindness, perseverance & patience was well acknowledged when you tamed the unleashed devil in me.. The devil that took me down, that sucked all the happiness from my system... And that made me wonder if happiness was ever meant to be with me. And for all those endless smiles, giggles I owe you a life full of happiness.. The downtrodden lane of my life is soaring up to the heights of ecstasy .. Just too happy to give it up for anything... Living it up for the moment. Dedicated to everyone who's seeking for a ray of hope to be happy

My Angel

I met you and I pictured an angel I dared to approach,but I feared to lose I cared to relive but it scared me to retreat Your smile is like the ray of sunshine, always giving me the hope for a brighter today As if I would never ever want to let it go Like there won't be a better tomorrow, I know you now and you seem like an angel I want to capture your gaze in mine forever Wishing that, till eternity we will always be together All I really want to do is to try and hold And the dilemma is, its hard to behold I can only try and shall always do Coz I don't want to lose the angel in you And yes when,I met you I met my angel in you My darling angel shall always reside in you I am glad I met you and now you are my angel Amen........

Nicholas Sparks' book title ! My way :)

DEAR JOHN, I happened to read THE NOTEBOOK you had written for me. I realized our lives have been A WALK TO REMEMBER despite A BEND IN THE ROAD. THE WEDDING was Great and I never regretted THE CHOICE. I often recall the wonderful time spent with you, specially the NIGHTS IN RODANTHE. You always sang to me happily as if it was THE LAST SONG of our lives... Now that you are not with me, I often wonder What a TRUE BELIEVER you were!!You came for THE RESCUE like an angel, like THE GUARDIAN I never had. So, I am sending you this MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE, with the hope that it reaches you and also because AT FIRST SIGHT you changed my life forever . U are unforgettable. (Note: I love you Nicholas Sparks for creating beauty with your writing :). )

For greatest fallacy is 'ignorance'!

The greatest fallacy of humanity is  "Ignorance" ! Here I am endorsing my observation as this is  something I have pondered about, for quite some time now and Nepal Earthquake aftermath is only making it firmer for me.In this turbulent time,I saw people join hands to make a difference -working tirelessly day and night,  I saw other group of people who might not be the frontrunners yet not giving up hope nor positivity or a chance to make a difference in whatever way they could and then there are the third category of vindictive individuals who neither helped nor hoped, but just put the blame on systems and processes in place ! I am not saying our systems isn't broken, I am not saying its not okay to be frustrated in this time of despair; however all I am saying is at least give it a thought,wait at least few seconds to form an opinion.Don't blatantly form judgments in thin air ! Open your senses and use your conscience before taking upon social media to use profanity or before beinging hung up on people/places/situation that might not have started as your true opinion on the first place, but Ripple effect of what masses believed to be true! On that note,lets not lose heart nor hope,since hope is the gleam of light that illuminates tunnel of darkness!

And Then..It Crashes Again!

I can't hear no noise.Usually when something hits against the wall,forces its way down,there it goes-Thudddd....A high pitched unignorable sound..But then, how can it be possible???I can hear no sound, yet the feeling is intense and its effect is profound.There is a lump formed in my neck..I open my mouth to speak,all I utter is silence.No,No...you got me wrong I am not having a stroke...yet I can exactly experience how, stroke might have an effect..... Nauseated(my tummy's acting up...)..Yes,I am...Broken...Yes,indeed....frail and fragile,....trying to calm my disheveled self..trying hard to gather some courage....My footsteps never felt this heavy before......My heart feels as if it'll pop out from my chest any moment..lub dub...lub dub..lub dub....(sounds as if my pace maker is a 3d surround sound system),I feel like a hot mess....I want to cry out loud but,to my dismay a drop of tear doesn't trickle down my eyes...(I am so mad(really...GRRRR) thinking that why would I cry my lungs out at times when I don't need it....and now when I need it to settle the unrest,them bloody tears don't show up)I know i know,I am not supposed to cuss...but,if I don't utter profanity....my feelings wouldn't seem as intense and that would be disrespecting my feelings...And who am I to dare do that???? Ok, to cut the long story short...my tears ditched me,when I would have wailed like a new born baby in her cradle...that's how fast my heart was racing, that's how tensed I was,that's how painful it felt......

The entire world seemed to have fallen apart...I dropped a vase this morning,yet i could try and attach its pieces together...But only if I could do the same with something that died inside me today...Broken from the core,shattered like it would never be able to be the centerpiece my heart again(oh well that broken vase definitely will be the centerpiece of my table...Sigggh);I tried hard to let it live....I made it beautiful with my imaginations...It raced inside me...and I would breathe with sigh of relief......It would show me how different tomorrow is going to be from today,so not to lose hope ever.....Most importantly,it always taught me,you lose only when the hope(faith) in you dies...what a beauty! How I would love to have you in my memory lane...How you would make it easy for me.....Stronger than ever...that's how I felt when you would wandered in my thought processes....but now that you are gone,it hurts....

My dream, you were the only one that never questioned me nor backfired me...never ridiculed me nor betrayed me,never ever ditched me or dumped me...but now you are gone...All my fault,I let you crash...You asked me to be stronger,Why on earth did I lose it all???why couldn't I save you when all you've done is save my head..Everynight in my sleep,you would kiss me swiftly...and the next day I would wake up with a crack of smile...Never again...will I get to have you around me...never again....But, when you were crashing into pieces,you wouldn't let me do the same...You didn't let me crash despite the fact that, you had to wipe your existence from my soul....It hurts...You are all I dreamt about.You were my aspiration, my motivation,beauty of my life....I wish I was a dream catcher so that I could catch you and hide you in my eyes forever...But, now that you're gone....I will have to find ways to praise your immenseness....If I give up, you'll lose and I don't want you to lose ever....So I'll dream yet again..With all my heart and soul............You crashed ...I faltered ..yet there'll be a better tomorrow........better than ever....better then we had ever dreamt of...

I will dream with my eyes wide open so that I never have to lose you again....

Dedicated to dreamers like myself...